king of the ozone

There’s a lot of things in my life that I’m not sure about, a lot that I’m contemplating, a lot that I really just don’t see has any purpose, I’m contemplating even the fact of me having a purpose.

I don’t even know why im here on earth or my place in this world,
I’m so very lost right now, so so lost.
I don’t know my next step, i can’t see passed right now and at this moment i see nothing good or worth going on for.
As a human these things are my flaw, my weakness. These things suck tremendously, i hate these idk feelings you can call them, they are awful to have. Doubting everything right now about me and my life.

But! I do not doubt that God isn’t real.. And I do not doubt that there is an end game for me in the works for his mighty plans. The only thing keeping me alive is the very thing i cannot see, hear, or touch.
Funny how that works :)

Jesus is alive! Jesus is real and he is allowing me to live for something i doubt as a man, for something i truly cannot see ever happening.
My fears and my doubts do not come from him those come from me a wretched, broken, lost, Stupid, disgusting human being, but my hope, strength, breathe, happiness, life even my very existence comes from him and because it is of him that is all I’ll ever need!

I’ll never amount to any good in this life, I’ll never do anything or become someone of any worth value.
Im a pathetic being human. This life sucks. I really do wish that it would be over already.
I’m sick of this worlds state, i want the great commission, i want the second coming, i want this world destroyed and rebuilt already.
I don’t know who i am or where I’m going in this thing we so like to classify as “life” living or how, but i do know that I’m made for a purpose in this death “life”
A purpose to stand by God and share his gospel. Not the Sunday school gospel but the real gospel. The word that doesn’t hold back, the message that needs to be heard.

Gods love is important but what about Gods wrath!? Honestly what about his wrath? This isn’t all cute and fuzzy.
Christianity and just God in general is scary and brutal as well!

Just read isaiah, jude, Ezekiel, James, romans, john. All brutal and clearly share gods wrath.
I’m the type that is tired of sharing just Gods love because to me and many out there feel that if that’s all your taught then your missing the whole point.

I can go on and on but right now I’m super tired rambling about this cuz it’s stuck in
My mind. But people always take evangelism the wrong way, just because we evangelize doesn’t mean were judging you. Were not judging. We are holding you accountable and meeting you where your at, to humble ourselves lower then you to carry the weight on your shoulders on ours as well. Me telling a fellow “believer” there life, decisions, actions, etc are not portraying God, don’t jump the gun and take it offensively, when the church, Christians try to point out your wrongs that doesn’t mean your being judged it just means you have humble fellow believers who care for you and want to be at your side.

I feel this is getting to long and losing it’s message but in all ” Christians are called to hold one another accountable and humble ourselves lower then you”

P,s when given a bible verse it doesn’t mean we are ” throwing” “sticking” ” shuving” scripture in your face to discourage or bring you down, we give you scripture because it is right there. To read, to learn, to grow. To realize the answers have been right in front of you this whole time. Also if your having a bible discussion why is it the second a bible verse comes up in defense to a question or statement made I’m correction of that person do you jump to don’t throw scripture at me. But wait aren’t we talking about the bible? So why is it wrong or offensive to bring up scripture?
I know it’s because people in general do not like hearing there sins or there sins being pointed out so in response we get angry, and when scripture proving us wrong and showing us straight up we are wrong can be frustrating. So we quickly go to conclusion that we are being judged and how dare you tell me I’m a sinner, who are you to tell me I’m doing this wrong.. Etc…

Again I say as a Christian to another Christian you are held accountable for one another, one falls you all fall. When a brother or sister comes to you, don’t get mad, don’t blow them off and so not feel your just being judged.
You are being loved! Loved! Loved!
” we are are to love others because God first loved us “

Gods love is real, Gods love is evident and tangible, Gods love is everything. And Gods wrath is just the same!

You will be judged by him, you will be punished, and you will be accountable for your life and the things you did against him. The things you didn’t do for his children and his glory.

The end. For now haha, falling asleep right now 0.o sorry for any tired typos